Day 77: Thinking the worst

Hi everyone, I’m feeling very fragile / devastated / upset at the moment. I’ve just been for the second scan. Of all days, this was the day that T had to screw up and get the wrong time for the appointment. It was all a misunderstanding. When he was leaving in the morning he asked…

Why don’t you just adopt?

Oh… the question that everyone in the infertility community* is just waiting to be asked… Why don’t you just adopt?   (*The club nobody wants to join but somehow we all manage to be members!) Let’s think about this for a second. I’ve discussed my own experience of having been adopted in various places on…

He’s cheating on me

I found out for sure today that he’s cheating on me. Not my partner – My dog walker.   Now, for those of you who don’t have a dog, imagine that you have someone to whom you entrust your dearest possession. And to whom you give money every single weekday to take care of it….

Day 74: Time to go up a size

Well, I’m now 7 weeks and 3 days pregnant. I still feel a bit on the rough side but the slight upside of this weekend’s less-than-summery weather is that my hayfever appears to have died down. I still have problems breathing which is quite disconcerting, and I have read that apparently pregnancy seems to have…

Day 72: Telling the parents

As some of you know, I had a pre-arranged visit to my folks scheduled. I have been super busy at work so haven’t even had much chance to speak with them on the phone, and it’s Father’s Day in the UK so it seemed like as good a chance as any to make the trip…

Day 70: A little blob with a flicker

Let me start off by saying I’m still worried. Maybe this is just me and my low expectations but I guess I’ll carry on worrying until / if we get to 12 weeks. And then I’ll probably worry some more. It’s not bad news but it’s not good news… It’s just news. Well, he’s still…

Day 69: Spring clean

I’m just waiting… and trying not to go mental waiting. It seems absolutely¬†unfair that you have to wait soooo long to try and be moderately assured that you might have a normal pregnancy. I’ve also been having a little rant to myself about how unfair it is that other people just get pregnant and don’t…

Ranty rant rant

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaah! So I know there have been other posts about this, but can I just reiterate: It is rude to ask people about their marital/parental status! Yet again today I have been faced with a barrage of questions around why I don’t have kids. The final straw was when my ex (long ago ex, from…

Day 68: I’m now bureaucratically pregnant

Went to see the doc this morning as planned. It was all very nice. She was lovely. I had to get my blood pressure done and we sort of joked about everything (I joke with all doctors, I mean how else do you make light of the fact that they’re peering up your undercarriage) and…

Day 67: Is it real yet?

I can’t believe we’ve been doing this for 67 days! That’s ages. A quick recap: I’m in my late 30s (sob!) and I have a history of infertility, involving operations, terrible periods, pain, endometriosis and so on… and never having been pregnant. My partner T and I have been through IVF and I’m now apparently…