Day 53: Not-so-Clearblue

 

 

 

It’s testing day!

You’d think this would be a good thing now the Two Week Wait is over. I barely slept last night as I kept waking up in between having dreams about negative pregnancy tests. (Yep, even my subconscious isn’t holding out much hope. I mean, that would be too easy, right?)

One thing I always do is get up during the night and go to the bathroom. A lot. So it was a bit unclear what “first thing in the morning” should be. I mean, should it be 2am? 4am? 6am? I settled for 6am as that’s the time I usually get up when I’m going to work. Well, that or earlier. Anyway, I did get up at other times too, so I don’t know if my wee was diluted or whatever. I’d also been drinking a shedload of water yesterday as I had the most horrific headache. Not sure if it was a migraine as I’m not sure what counts as one, but I had it all afternoon into the evening and I felt awful. I am the sort of person who’s a bit trigger happy on the old meds – I usually get a lot of headaches but take painkillers, which I obviously haven’t been doing, and also I’ve been sneezing a lot due to hayfever (and Dr Fit told me not to take antihistamines, so all round I’ve been a snotty headachey mess).

So… 6ish this morning, I wee on the stick and this is what happens…

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Now, I know it’s not very interesting to see other people’s wee sticks but I’m being serious here… What is that supposed to mean? It could be wishful thinking on my part, but I’m pretty sure there is a faint line going across the minus line – it appeared pretty much straight away and I watched it for a few minutes and it stayed like that. I don’t know if I weed on it wrong (I don’t have much previous for this, sadly) and somehow muddied the waters with some sort of cross-weeing (I wouldn’t put it past myself to screw this up) but it isn’t entirely minus, as far as I can see.

Here’s another picture, then I promise I’ll stop:

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Let’s just say that Clearblue pregnancy tests should be renamed toย Not-so-Clearblue. What am I supposed to do with that?

I’ll tell you what I’m doing.

I have the day off. (So I can sit around and mope in the face of negative test.) T and I are off for a swanky dinner this evening, and apart from that I was planning on doing some baking and going to the mall. I don’t get to go shopping that much as I am usually at work and then when not at work I feel like I should be spending time with Dog. (And T, he he.) So today I’m spending time with Dog and will pop out to the shops and buy one of every pregnancy test they have going… and possibly some clothes. And I’m thinking of getting a new phone, because mine doesn’t really work any more – probably because it keeps getting full of random pictures of Dog and food. We shall see.

Anyway, I showed the test to T and he’s of the optimistic opinion that it is “probably positive” and therefore he’s banning me from drinking champagne at our swanky dinner tonight.

I keep looking at it and wondering whether I’m just one of those deluded women who has a negative test but doesn’t acknowledge that it’s negative…? I mean, I was expecting it to be negative so I’m a bit flummoxed by this whole idea that there’s a faint vertical line.

Obviously in this respect, Dr Google is a quack. All I’m getting from google is a load of hopefuls on mumsnet and whatnot with people saying “Oh it’s definitely positive” but with nobody coming back to say whether it actually was. #nothelpful

So… I’m going to wait and test again. And test some more. I’m supposed to email my doc today and tell them whether I’m pregnant or not. I’m thinking not, but I’m not entirely sure… AAGH. So I suppose I’ll wait a few days and see if it goes either way.

Please feel free to post helpful, get-a-grip-of-yourself-woman! encouraging / other comments and let me know what you think, how you’re feeling today and any other exciting news! ๐Ÿ™‚

N

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62 comments

  1. babyangelb

    It does look faintly positive! So your Doctor just wants you to test at home? Why can’t you go in for a blood test? I hate home tests. I never trust them. I feel like blood test is the only way to know for sure.

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    • Nara

      Yeah, we just get a home test. I’m going to go out shortly and get some more so I can find out more! At least I want to know if I can drink some commiseration champagne this evening! ๐Ÿ™‚

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  2. RC

    Looks positive to me! Have a look at countdown to pregnancy’s photo gallery- the blue test dyes are harder to read, but you will see from the range of results that yours is a positive.
    First response early result (pink dye test) are my go-to test!

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  3. pinksnow78

    Looks positive to me!!! But get yourself a First Response Early Response test – pink lines do seem better than blue!! (whispering congratulations!!) x

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  4. TryTryAgain

    This looks 100% positive to me! In my experience, the Clearable cross tests are tricky to read, i’d buy some First Response tests today and then do one tomorrow, they’re much clearer to read. Congratulations!! xx

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  5. The 30ish

    Definitely looks positive to me. If you want to be sure get a few more tests and try with those, then test again tomorrow with the same test to see if the line gets darker.

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  6. Nara

    Thank you everyone for your positivity! I’ve just done another test and… BADABING! I don’t know how to post photos on the comments so it’ll have to be another post but… Bloody hell! (‘Scuse French)

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  7. ashleykyleanderson

    Ahh! That is most definitely a positive!!! Omg I am so weepy lately and I am seriously welling up right now. I know how down you were through the 2ww and I have been thinking about you all this weekend and hoping you were wrong!! โ˜บ๏ธ This is so exciting! So happy for your happy news!

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  8. beanie

    Babe , I’m not one to give false hope. If I don’t see a line, I won’t pretend I do…. But your test IS POSITIVE ๐Ÿ™‚

    I knew it.

    I’m so happy for you!!

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  9. Mrs T

    That looks pregnant to me, congrats! Just FYI, the digital ones I used required a higher hcg level so it could take an extra day or two to show up on one of those!

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  10. notabroodychick

    I was going to say what the others said and get out there are get a FRER, but it sounds like you did and no doubt on that one? Definately a positive?!? Yay! I’m so happy for you and you can have a super duper (if alcohol free) celebration meal tonight!

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    • Nara

      Ahh thank you. I hope it’s not gloaty or anything. I am more in shock… I have never in all of my lots of years had a positive test. So I feel a bit stunned! I’m just hoping it sticks!

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      • valleyally

        Not gloaty at all; its disbelief and needing extra confirmation – I get it. I will be the same way some day. All the best and hoping nothing but smooth sailing from here on out….at least until the teenage years. ๐Ÿ™‚

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    • Nara

      See my next post! ๐Ÿ™‚ Not sure about chemical pregnancies though and how they work… Maybe best I don’t find out about them! Step away from Google!!

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      • Recurrentlyhopeful

        I’ve had a chemical – very different to what you’re experiencing. I’m no doctor of course, and I don’t have a crystal ball but I don’t think it’s a chemical ๐Ÿ™‚

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      • Nara

        Awwww I dunno. I really have never had anything like a pregnancy symptom so I’ve no idea what to expect!
        My symptoms mainly are bloating, spots, sore boobs and a weird metallic taste in my mouth… I thought it was just me being weird but I definitely seem to have this taste. It sort of feels weird in my stomach too, but I’ve been on these drugs for over 50 days so I expect it’s maybe drug symptoms!

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      • Recurrentlyhopeful

        They sound like pregnancy symptoms, although they say that pregnancy symptoms often don’t kick in until 6 weeks so even if you weren’t feeling a thing it still wouldn’t mean anything. Arrgh this is unfortunately a waiting game now….

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      • Nara

        Waaaaah. I think I’m supposed to get in touch with the doc to say yay or nay. I’m waiting till tomorrow just to test again as we don’t trust the tests! Haha.

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