I don’t know why it’s so hard to update nowadays. I think it’s because I’m actually pretty busy at work, and then when I’m outside work, I’m quite busy too. Tonight I went to a book reading for a book that I partly crowd funded! Very exciting! (I was one of hundreds so it’s not like I did it on my own.) It was really brilliant but then not so fun travelling back late night in the rain and pregnant.
Anyway, I wanted to do an update because it’s hard to describe this feeling of tipping over from being not-pregnant to sort-of-pregnant to, s***, I think I might actually be pregnant!
The reason I say this is because today I told the HR lady at work. This really wasn’t as bad as it sounds. I really get on with her – and it feels weird to call her “HR lady” but sort of disrespectful to call her “HR girl” so anyway, I told my friend at work who works in HR.
She was excited for me! Which was nice. I also said I was worried about telling my boss and whatnot and she said not to worry and he’d just have to deal with it. We will have to figure out how we divide up the leave – I’ve not been there very long so I’m entitled to some very low paid maternity leave (statutory maternity leave which works out at next to nothing so is essentially unpaid leave) but T might be able to take some Shared Parental Leave (this newfangled thing in the UK where the mother gives up some of her mat leave and the father/partner can take it). So – it might be an option.
We have been doing some sort of pregnant-y things too. Like we went to see a nursery. Believe it or not we have to sign up ASAP to be sure of getting a place for little bub – especially if I’m not taking the (usual in the UK) year mat leave. We saw our closest local one (pretty much at the end of our street) and it was so nice! It would be great. Seeing another one on Wednesday and then we’ll sign up for one of them. You have to pay a deposit but then you’re going to get a place. The earliest the nurseries take babies is four months, so we need to take four months off between us, which should be achievable.
HR lady said I should just try and speak with my boss when I can. He’s notoriously elusive so I’ll have to ambush him one day I think, which I’m not looking forward to. We get on SO well and I really don’t want to jeopardise that. But I’m definitely beginning to show and have been for a few weeks, but I’m sort of disguising it with baggy clothes. Eventually I’ll have to start dressing pregnant rather than fat!
In other news we told T’s parents. We did a reveal, which was really fun, and they were thrilled. It took them a while to get it… They didn’t quite understand! It was a balloon in a box and also a banner and the ultrasound picture. I suppose we didn’t realise that they had never had one (as T is adopted like me) so they didn’t quite understand what it was supposed to be, especially as the baby looks like a blob! But they were super happy. It was really nice. Also my parents were happy and my dad kept asking if I’d told them yet. I think he’s more excited than I am!
I had an unexpected nice day out with my dad last week. He was supposed to be doing a London trip with my mum, but then she had to go and look after a sick relative. (I might do a post about that, but not right now.) So they’d already booked to go to a show and my dad asked if I’d go instead. It was Carole King, the musical Beautiful. Well – I would never have picked to go – it just didn’t sound like my thing, but I absolutely loved it. Straight to the top 3 of my musicals list. (Matilda, Les Miserables and now Beautiful, if you ask.) Firstly it had music I liked, from the 60s, and secondly the story was really good. It was sort of funny as everyone in the audience was my dad’s age, and I probably looked like his girlfriend or something, but I really enjoyed it and it was a nice unexpected outing with my dad. He definitely seems the most excited so far and keeps talking about his next grandchild.
We also told my brother and got a video message from him and the kids. We sent a card for aunts and uncles day which was last Tuesday. I also sent one to my other sibling overseas but that probably won’t get there for ages! And my sister already knows. So… We are sort of telling more people. We went out with friends at the weekend and we told them.
Half of me is happy but half is still scared.
I’m definitely porking out. I even had to order some Palmer’s cocoa butter as I suddenly realised I was getting stretch marks on my boobs. They are humungous. I am sort of shocked when I see them. And I definitely have a belly. Also I did the Doppler yesterday and found the heartbeat straight away. Usually it takes me a while. So that cheered me up. I suppose we are gradually adding in pregnancy type things. T wants me to make a list of stuff we need so he can figure out the best place to get it.
Really when I was speaking with HR lady today I said it didn’t feel real. She said I would have to get used to it! I think I’m still so scared something bad might happen.
Wednesday is my midwife appointment. The first one in the community after my booking appointment. And Friday is my appointment at the private clinic so at least I will get a scan.
I had an alarming call today as in anticipation of the midwife appointment they said they checked my file and apparently my routine urine sample last time (about two weeks ago) showed an “equivocal” result which means that I *might* have a urine infection. They left this message whilst I was in a meeting at work! I panicked, obviously. Anyway the upshot is that I managed to speak with my GP and he said it was unlikely if I had no symptoms, but has prescribed me antibiotics… Both he and the midwife said not to worry if I was asymptomatic. But obviously it’s a slight worry. I’m trying not to as they said not to!
Anyway, here I am, almost 16 weeks (currently 15 + 5). That’s something. To put you in the picture, I’m lying in bed with T and Dog, humungaboobs smelling very chocolatey (from the cocoa butter). What a mental image!