Remembering infertility

I’ve realised that there is a part of me that somehow wants to commemorate this time, even though I am in the thick of it and loving it – I don’t want to forget it. I read an old blog post of mine that I wrote when B was only a few weeks old, and…

This is what two looks like

I can scarcely believe the time has gone so quickly, but our little B is two! It has been the best two years of my life. (And his! Haha.) We have had good times, fun, love and joy. My life feels infinitely more wonderful, even though it was pretty wonderful to start off with and…

Just the two of us…

On Wednesday, B’s nursery was closed for an inset day and T had to go back to work, so I took the day off and we had a little one on one time. We went to the Museum of London Docklands where he had a great time wandering around the exhibits, and playing in the…

Merry Christmas Eve

Merry Christmas Eve all! I’ve spent the day off work with my one and only, and my overwhelming feeling is gratitude. (Well, that and realising I really dislike wrapping.) It took a while to get here. I was told I’d never have kids naturally, and after over a decade of infertility and loss, operations, IVF…

A meditation on wooden toys

Or: Feelings when your 21 year old scribbles on the £90 “open ended play” wobbel board (my gift to him on his first birthday). When this happens to your natural wobbel and it doesn’t come off… – It doesn’t affect usage – it still functions perfectly as a wobbly board and slide and baby doll…

Taming the inner parental tiger

We are on holiday. It’s B’s first ever summer holiday, at 20 months. He had seen a beach before, but it was in Wales and it was freezing so I don’t think it counts. Of course for our first week (thankfully, I guess, only half a week) we had some pretty bad weather. It’s a…

Zumba!

Don’t worry, I haven’t turned into an exercise nut. My local friend was a member and we realised if we went in on a joint membership we could save a bunch of money. So I joined the local club which is pretty much the only one I’m ever likely to go to, because it’s right…

On motherhood and happiness

Had one of my decompression nights last night – dinner with a few girlfriends. Three of us have one child; one has two, and the other two with one are trying for another. So naturally on mum’s night out the kids were a topic of conversation. (And bikini waxes, but that’s another story!) We got…

When one is enough

I’ve talked a lot about infertility before – that’s the reason this blog started in the first place. But once you’ve been through it all and ended up with a baby – what are you? I’m still technically infertile, but I am a mother. I don’t feel like I can properly call myself infertile, aligning…

QBR: Quarterly Baby Review

Before I embarked on this journey, I worked in an office. I’m a not-very-bigwig in the corporate world. And for years I defined myself by it, so I find myself applying “work” lingo to this new and amazing world of parenthood… Hence: the QBR. At work, the Quarterly Business Review is a chance to look…