The loneliness of the long distance mama

(Title apologies to Alan Sillitoe) Readers, I’ve been feeling morose lately. I’m not quite sure why. I’m fairly sure it’s hormonal and maybe to do with those crazy chemicals rushing around my body, or work being a bit full on and then easing off, or breastfeeding slowing down a bit… or something. In one way…

Letting myself go

I was looking at old photos of myself on Timehop (God bless Timehop, the regurgitator of past lives!) and realised that I was really skinny. This was something of a surprise to me as I spent a good proportion of my life and most of my adult life feeling fat. It's like a lot of…

America :(

There are no words. So I’ll leave you with these for today.   “First they came for the Communists, and I did not speak out— Because I was not a Communist.   Then they came for the Trade Unionists, and I did not speak out— Because I was not a Trade Unionist.   Then they…

Planning for the future… Digging up the past

Or: Lost and found I didn’t go searching for the past. I was dreaming of future things: of our new house and the child that might one day play in it – when I found my birth certificate. Or to be more precise: an ancient, fragile document comprised of thin pages covered in writing that…

Triggery trigger things

I have been thinking lately about what it’s like to be infertile / pursuing IVF / post miscarriage.    “One of these things is not like the other” – © Sesame Street I realised that’s how it feels. I feel Other. Regular readers of my blog will know that I’ve had a whole lifetime of…

Reblog: 4 Reasons People Think It Is Okay To Be Racist Towards Asians

At the Oscars, Chris Rock, who ironically made it a point to address the lack of diverse representation at the awards ceremony, also made an insensitive joke that played to Asian American stereotypes and child labor. You can watch a clip here: …and by the way, those are not those children’s real names… Read more… (Really, do! Please!)…

Blowing your own trumpet 

   In case you hadn’t gathered from my blog musings, I work in a very competitive and fairly aggressive industry. It also happens to be an industry mainly populated by white males… which isn’t something I considered that much as a student at a Russell Group university, or as an adolescent doing her GCSEs and…

This crazy life

I’m going to a christening. I have to go, because it’s for my niece. And I feel generally okay about it. It’s been long enough since I miscarried (last July) that I’ve settled back down into my old identity of Childless Me.  For my sister, who miscarried a few months after I did, also as…